Needs Further Evaluation, Part 2
My recent medical journey highlighted yet another lesson. Needs Further Evaluation started on January 13th with an email alert that pushed the boundaries of my walk with God and took me to parts previously unknown.
As we waited and wondered, as He schooled us in the Doctrine of Mystery, I found myself pushing the boundaries of prayer to pray: “God, will You please just go ahead and speak to me and show me how this is going to end? Will You simply tell me the outcome?”
In my human frailty, I wanted a mental and emotional head start on any mandatory adjustments destined to define my future. My mind went to commitments for the upcoming year, birthday parties, family gatherings, conferences, etc. If only I could just know.
So, I urged God to tell me where this was headed and how it would end; “Please just show me.”
He did show me, but not in a manner that I expected. By His Spirit, He led me to His Word and a specific conversation Jesus had with the Pharisees when they asked for a sign.
Matthew 12:38-39 reads, “Then some of the scribes and Pharisees said to Him, “Teacher, we want to see a sign from You.” But He answered and said to them, “An evil and adulterous generation craves for a sign; and yet no sign will be given to it, but the sign of Jonah the prophet.”
This took my breath. I did not feel rebuked or reprimanded for asking. Rather, in a gentle way, My Savior reminded me: “Do not seek a sign; just seek Me. Find your peace in Me, not in a prediction, not in an indication, not in an outcome, but in Me. ”
So, with Him by my side, I settled in and settled down to honor His timing — without a sign, without knowing. My prayer became, "I trust You. I don't know, but You do know, and that is all I need to know until the time arrives that You want me to know.”
Following this encounter with The Lord, lab tests, biopsies, and genetic consultations filled our calendar, and we waited. When the news finally came, as I shared previously, the outcome brought relief (though a five-year treatment is mandatory).
Looking back, I realize, these tenets are not new, yet they took on new meaning in the context of this pilgrim’s journey. Don’t seek a sign, just seek Me.
No wonder. After all, “He is our peace” (Ephesians 2:14a).
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“He has also planted eternity [a sense of divine purpose] in the human heart.”
(Ecclesiastes 3:11 Amp)
When have you asked God to give you a preview of the outcome of a difficult situation?
Did He allow you to know, or did He lead you to wait in trust until His timing was right for you to know His will?
What Scripture did He use to encourage you?
